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Sometimes things hurt you, your emotions, your feelings, a physical pain, it can be a myriad of sensations and ways to interpret it. Sometimes you just don’t know how to cope with it, your life decisions and your choices catch up with you all at once, like the subtle creep of a strong liquor.
Nothing will ever take away that pain, you’ll simply move forward and move on from it, but it will never heal, you’ll never put that demon to rest and you will never forgive.
Jealousy and rage, such simple emotions – isn’t it logical to admit, that the simplest emotions are therefore the most pure? That their powers are so much stronger because they do not require thought, they just are, the same can be said for the greatest of people, they do not think, they just do.
Its hard to be strong like these emotions, to gain this power, to draw from it, without becoming corrupted by, without destroying yourself and the things you love around you.
This is never more true than when losing a loved one, imagine the years of closeness, the beauty and the joy you have shared with another person, the impossible black hole that exists without their existence, and that nightmare becoming a reality.
How can one frail human mind, spurred on by grief, despair and anger cope with any other reaction than to destroy?
So next time you sit there, and you ask your petty fucking questions about why people aren’t all sunshine and rainbows, and why the world isn’t a wonderful socialist utopia and we’re all having a great time – the answer is staring you in the face.
People are not happy, happiness is a fleeting part of our existence, the rest is a never ending fight to recreate that one great moment, and even you do, you know the fall from that great height of joy, is going to cripple you, so appreciate the good times while they are there.
So stop pretending you’re better than the rest of us, you might not have experienced it yet, but you will, and it will rip you to bits inside, and how will you react?
You’ll destroy something, it might be yourself, your relationships with other people or an object you own, but you’ll prove that we’re all just angry messed up people waiting to happen.
(via theanimalblog)
OMFG SNACKS
(Source: snacksthecat)
This Week
I have:
Too much work || Too little time
Too many puzzles || No motivation
Too much heartache || No light at the end of the tunnel
I hate this week
Snacks, lord of time and creation
(Source: snacksthecat)
Thoughts on life.
I was on the bus yesterday, in a rather sombre mood, it was about 8 o clock in the morning, and I was travelling the usual hellish distance to Wheatley just outside of Oxford, where I do the majority of my studying for my degree.
It was at this point, that I was looking out of the window, listening to the humming and gentle throbs of the engine, and the general chatter of those around me.
I was, as I always am, amazed by the verdant beauty of the rolling countryside, and it stirred a deep feeling inside of me, a yearning to live life to the fullest, and to enjoy my youth whilst I retain it.
No sooner had I been contemplating this, when I saw a woman with a young puppy, a scruffy little brown thing. The lady in question may have been around 45 or so, maybe older, the puppy a few weeks if that.
It was such a happy little animal, and this woman was trying so hard to teach it to sit, laughing at her failed attempts, and the clumsiness of the small thing as it tumbled over on the grass or ran around in circles.
I don’t know this woman, I don’t know what she has endured in her life, but I knew just from looking at her, that this new found relationship with that puppy, had brought her great joy, that it would continue to do so for the rest of its life.
Is this not proof then, that friendship, that the smallest of forces in this world such as a puppy, can bring the greatest joy?
I’ve never cared for being wealthy in my life, it’s not a priority, it can’t buy what I witnessed - love, friendship, trust - and while this may have been said thousands of times before me, and is not a particularly new thought, I think it’s one of the most important.
